Day 1 : Reflections

Dec. 13th, 2009 --------------

In this post I mentioned that I was starting to go 24/7. It's been 10 days and dozens of diapers and I'm still padded and confident that diapers are for me. I apologize for waiting this long to post any update of my "progress", I didn't want to get myself excited and over confident, and then back out a week in. I'll be catching up with current posts, I've been writing a diary since I started, this is my entry for Dec. 4th, my first day in diapers...

Dec 4th, 2009--------------

I woke up in a dry diaper, good sign, it was nice waking up in something I didnt have to immediatly change/wash, I woke up and changed out of my pretty pink clothie that Tommy made for me, I took a nice warm shower, dried off before the cold could get to me. I put some A+D ointment on my smooth diaper area, and put on a Small Tranquility ATN. I really did it up for this diapering, its usually just a quick thing when I diaper myself, but I got out my Paci, and cuddled with my bear and put my diaper on just right, it feels so right and makes me really happy to be a crinkly padded girl :)

All little girls need to grow up, I slipped a pair of jeans over my small diaper, this would be a picture of me in a small ATN, they fit me pretty close and have held some really heavy wettings before, but once they're wet they need to be changed pretty quickly, sitting down will get you in trouble and they're risky under a pair of size 3 jeans. I went out, breaking rule #1 of true 24/7-ism, I ran some errands and didn't have any tea that morning so I didn't feel a great need to wet until I returned hours later to my apartment, where I got the hand on the door syndrome. When I get home or near home, or even the promise of a close-by restroom, I often realize I need to go, a lot. I came inside and put my things down, I wanted to get out of my pants before I soaked them, but I really needed to go... so I wet, and leaked. I  grabbed an absorbent puppy pad thingy to stand on and wet my jeans with my head down, sucking my thumb.

I undressed and hopped in the shower, dissapointed in myself that I leaked so early, pretty disheartened by the whole experience, I was having a nice afternoon before that and it kinda got me down. I'll have to get used to accidents, and my confidence was quickly re-instated by another very cuddly diaper change. I recently put colorful animals all around my bed so my room has a real cutesy look to it now, just a few wall appliqués sure make a girl feel special. I spent some time cleaning up the house in a depend, something that is comfy and makes me happy but would only really wear around the house, depends count as play diapers. When I did the kitchen, the running water made me wet, and I was in the depend for not very long. I changed into a Tena and went out for the evening, yet again not totally prepared to wet, but at least still diapered.

I came home late, while I was brushing my teeth and washing off my make-up I wet my Tena, but I was wearing tights and a wool turtleneck dress so I wasn't worried about leaking. I'm occasionally event staff for a local venue, I'm lucky to get 2 shifts a month but when I do I get to dress up all pretty and schmooze with Sacramento's finest, and I could really use the money right now. I'm about to goto bed, I feel girly and clean and refreshed, all ready for bed, I changed out of the wet Tena and put back on the cloth diaper I didn't wet last night, I put more powder on even though it was already really powdery, I smell and feel really pretty right now.

It's been a long day, and I didn't really feel like it was that big of a deal, but I always kept a change with me in case i wanted to wet, I think I was a good diapered girl, I get a star for today! Do I think I'll stay diapered tomorrow? For sure, I'm totally motivated and I guess you wouldn't be reading this if I didn't go through with it. Ni Ni and heres to my first diapered day :)

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