Some of my favorite horror movies of all time have been by David Cronenberg, The Fly, VideoDrome, Naked Lunch, Shivers, all movies focusing on disease, destroying/altering of the human body, horrifying and unique sexual acts and depravity... anyway, thats how I feel right now. I feel like I'm in a Cronenburg movie and i'm falling apart... ok, overreacting, just let me tell you how it's been...
Disease - I've got an awful cold, had a touch of the sniffles on New Years Eve so I went to bed early, woke up jut flat-out. This is my Dec/Jan cold, I get one a year, and it comes now... I've just been doing my cold thing, no medicine, just Vitamin C from natural sources and mushrooms and greens in chicken stock and as much exercise as I can handle... usually lasts only a couple days :)
Hot wax poured on face - Got my eyebrows waxed before New Years thinking I was still going out and doing something, it was my first time. See this post to learn more...
Bruised and beaten - Just yesterday I was going for my morning run... first I see a Uhaul truck backed up to the sidewalk, my eyes are then distracted by a very cute yorkshire terrier running around being all cute and happy, distracted enough that I don't notice that the ramp on the Uhaul is down, and I bang my knee on that little are right under the kneecap... almost started crying on these peoples lawn it hurt so bad, now it hurts awfully bad if I even remotely move it. Same thing goes for one of the toes on my right foot, I had my foot accidentally crushed at the home in Arizona moving a couch and it's felt pretty messed up since, I've been noticeably limping.
Devils hands are idle playthings - As you might have noticed, I've eben written more in the past month than I think I have in the past year, at least word for word. I'm really starting to take this site seriously, and that means lots of keyboard/mouse time, which ultimately means my hands are going to take a beating. Again, as most of you already know, my wrists were broken in middle school by being thrown down a flight of stairs by a uber-bully, the first accident to put a nail in the coffin of my programming career. then my left wrist was broken again in 08 in a bike accident perpetrated by a vicious homeless guy, I always imagine the first guy to be the second guy later on in life. My wrists are pretty messed up, it's hard to be on computers all day and since the second accident, I gave up on trying to make a living in any sort of data entry field, or anything where I had to use my hands all day, even this far into this post I'm slowing down and having to take little rests for my hands. I think having a more ergonomically set-up workstation in my home would help, and I've used voice recognition software a little bit, it's a catch-22, I can't use Dragon Naturally Speaking on Windows 7 without spending tons of money for the 10.1 version (can't find a torrent) and the Speech to Text on 7 could really use some improvement, it doesn't touch Dragons accuracy.
That's enough whining for now, I don't feel very pretty and I think you get the point. The other thing is, Is i'm still really happy, being transgendered makes it easy to be happy in a body that you don't like. I feel better after even writing this post, blogging is a very cathartic activity sometimes, hope everyone out there is feeling great... I'm still diapered, more on that soooooooooooon!
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don't confront me with my failures, I have not forgotten them