I had a photoshoot last Saturday that went great, love working with Strokers as the shoots are always low-chatter and low-stress. That night I met with the promotional people at ifriends and the lovely Wendy Summers. We drankand talked industry, made plans to cam and be a featured performer on Ifriends. Then a pre-awards party at a producers place, had a big day coming up so I only poured a little Jameson in a red plastic cup. I schmooze and connect with old friends then head home to cuddle with bear. Did I mention I have a new haircut? Love my bangs!
I wake up and look over a list of questions about AB/DL life that I'll be answering for a TV documentary about "extreme" relationships. I take a cross town metro ride while thoughts swirl around about the best phrasing, things I want to avoid, relatable concepts I wanted to portray. I showed up on set and didn't hit any homeruns, but I think I put out some good ideas. Back on the metro and heading to the awards. A friend picks me up downtown and I change into my outfit in the passenger seat with one leg up on the dashboard pulling my stockings up, good view of my undies if anyone was looking. I put on my little Lolita dress and my Mary-Janes and we headed towards Glendale.
I had a lovely time, though I'm struggling to finish this post without saying something negative or self-effacing. Honestly I wasn't terribly responsible the week after, spent time with visiting friends and went to various parties, kinda fell back into that unproductive hole I've been talking about in the last few posts. I have another busy day today and am looking forward to A.) getting back to productivity and B.) learning how to avoid said holes. Getting famous, living in LA and dying at 27 is a path i'm trying to avoid, it's such a cliché, I want my story to be better than that. My birthday is in a few days, i'm taken with thoughts on mortality, sustainability and what I really want to be doing in my life. These heavy thoughts reflect a need to plan for the future, before it all slips away from me and i'm facedown on Hollywood blvd with all the other starlets who couldn't get their act together.
This "Major Award" is a good sign that I need to do more with what I have. Every post is a new beginning here at StayDiapered.com and all I ask is for your patience, your support and maybe the occasional gift, though I hardly deserve it after only posting a few times all month. There will be more soon, I promise!
There's a whole snuggly world out there Riley, make the most of it!